Someone's Going to Call Me Mom- 32 Weeks

I've written plenty about my my feelings on being pregnant, but I haven't written much about my feelings on being a parent soon. Perhaps that's because it's so overwhelming I don't even know where to begin, but I'm going to give it a try.

Sometimes at night Mark and I will hang out in the baby's room in the glow of the lamp, and just try to imagine what it's going to be like. I have a feeling we have no idea, but we try anyway. We wonder what he will look like, what level of mischief we will pass onto him, and how different our lives are going to be for the better. Leaving the house will now require packing the diaper bag, gathering all the can't-live-without toys, and working around eating and nap schedules. No more spur of the moment date nights or weekend getaways. We've had the best four years to ourselves and now I can't wait to share our lives with someone else. And one thing I know for sure is there is going to be a little less sleep, and a lot more love.

We have spent every second of the last 7 months together. I feel like I know this little boy in so many ways even though I've never seen him. I can't wait to look into his little squinting eyes for the first time. I can already feel how fast time is going to pass and how much he will change in the first year. I want to remember every moment of it.

I'm nervous for the challenges of the first few months: nursing, sleep schedules, bath time, going back to work, and what in the world I do if he gets sick. I know we will figure it out as we go and learn from trial and error. Hopefully we'll get the basics down in the first few months, and then the fun will really begin when he's smiling, sitting up, crawling, walking, and learning to talk. I can't wait to be there for every one of the moments, and to watch him discover the world.

I know I'll make some mistakes, get frustrated and cry, and wonder every day if what I'm doing is right. But I am going to try my hardest to be the best Mom I can and raise the happiest, craziest kid you can possibly imagine.